I want to start with a story. Backtrack about ten years ago. I had just graduated college, I was hopelessly in love with my then-boyfriend of seven years, and all I knew for certain was that I had always dreamed of living abroad. I was at a crossroads in my life, although I didn't know it at the time. What to do? Follow my dreams, or stay with my heart, with the man I always believed I would marry?
I remember feeling like it was impossible to make such a choice. I told myself that I probably wouldn't get the teaching fellowship I applied for, to work in France. Then I got the offer...to live in the sunny south of France, with an ample stipend to live and travel on. I still didn't know. Could I do it? Could I just...leave this man I loved behind? In the airport, as I said goodbye to him, I couldn't stop crying. I told him, that if we were truly meant to be together, then a year apart wouldn't matter. We could make it work long distance. He told me not to go. He said he would never forgive me.
Looking back now, I see what that year in France was. It was my freedom. It was my independence. It was me, going my own way, listening to the dreams of my own soul. My ex boyfriend didn't support that dream at all. There's much more to the story to us, but for now I'll just say, that I am eternally grateful that it wasn't meant to be, that he and I would be married as I once dreamed.
My sister is on the road right now. She is on this incredible free spirited adventure in New Zealand. She takes the most incredible photographs, like this waterfall in Milford Sound, NZ. She had wanted to do this forever, this backpack hippie life. She told me she was always envious of my travels. But something always stopped her...until last winter, when she got pneumonia. After a frightening hospitalization, when she came perilously close to the edge of death, she recovered, quit her job, and left home.
She's been flying her wings ever since, 8 months later, and I could not be more proud of her. She's inspiring me...reminding me...to follow those dreams.
So this is what I say to you, who harbors secret dreams of being a gypsy in her hidden soul...to you, who has always wanted to dance barefoot on the grass, with flowers in her hair...to you, who desperately dreams of finding that true love, and settling down and raising babies with them...YES. I say Yes. You can do this. You must do this, for the sake of your own happiness. Let go of your fears, and open up to your dreams.
This is your one wild and precious life, as Mary Oliver calls it...so go forth and live your dreams. No one else will live them for you. This is up to you. Not making a choice is still a choice. Only you know the way that's right for you, so never let anyone else's ideas of what is right for you limit your life. You are limitless, so keep reaching for those dreams.
So much love,
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I'm an energy healer with a passion for compassion, a sparkly love affair with crystals, and a deep commitment to evolving awareness.